All right, world. This is the point where the work you make suddenly becomes public. This is a still from my short film Winter Guest. Just yesterday we made a trailer and put it on Facebook and…I’ve really been kind of blown away. Lots of likes, lots of “I can’t wait to see its.” I mean…
The tricky thing is accepting your shortcomings. Obviously. Always. But we made this film a year ago, and now, of course, my taste has changed. My acting has changed. My idea of what should make a good short film has changed completely. When I look at our film…can I admit this? I kind of hate it sometimes. Other times I’m pretty smitten.
It all comes down to: I’m really really nervous. We’re premiering our little short in Wisconsin a week from now. And I’m afraid.
Afraid of what? Afraid people are going to find it boring – it definitely is a slower moving character study. Afraid they’re going to pick out the moments where it looks especially student film-y. Because it does. It’s not a real movie. We made it for under $900. Afraid they’re going to be like, well, after all that excitement, it’s really not much talk about.
But I have to let that go. It was a first. I’m making another soon, and then the feature this summer.
I’ll have a lot more to say about this trip coming up. There’s so much to plan in terms of meeting with actors and business owners….I mean, I’m terrified. I shake thinking about it. Will anyone want to help me? Will I get too excited and appear pushy? (Don’t do it, Rebecca!)
I just have to breathe. Plan well. Show up like a nice, normal person (even though we know that I am clearly not). Lord. Anyway. Here’s the trailer! It’s simple, it shows our flaws, but it’s out there!